"I REMEMBER" 
				        Finished: March 3 1998 
	I don't remember very much
I remember that it hurt. . .alot 
I remember the last time when 
I ran and he begged for me to let him hurt me just one more time 
I never want to feel helpless again
I never want to cry again
I want the only pain I'll ever feel to be caused by me and no one else
I don't want him to know that I remember
I don't want him to know how much it hurt
I won't let him ever know that after the last time
I would lay there and wait for him to try again
I will never allow myself to be helpless again
I will never be able to cry again without remembering and hating my weakness
I will never be healed enough to tell anyone what happened only what 
I 'remember'
I don't remember very much
I remember that it hurt. . .alot and that's all.


			By: Madeline Daring